The story changed suddenly in me – this was always how Rowan was supposed to come into the world. He was always going to redeem birth for me. He was always going to erase my fear that my body didn’t know how to do what it was made to do. He was just going to do it way differently than we knew.
“I WANT YOU TO PICK YOUR SIX FAVORITE COLORS FROM THESE CRAYONS, AND DRAW THE SCENE OF YOUR IDEAL BIRTH.” Oh, shit. I am not visual or artistic. This is going to be hard… she continues: “You can use images, stick figures, symbols – don’t worry about it being a piece of art.” The instructor […]
You will build and tear down and rebuild a million times before you decide to have another child after stillbirth. Most of this constant construction will go unnoticed – you are strong, resilient, brave. You will be so many different women, so many different mothers… to yourself, to your family, to the world. You will […]